11 days into the new year. It feels like it has been forever already – and it certainly has not been without surprises.
I rang in the new year at my beloved home bar, Sidewinders, with drag queens and Andrew Christian underwear models. It was a joyous moment, and certainly a memory that will stand out in my mind for a long time.
My roommate won the New Mexico Gay Rodeo Association title of Mr. NMGRA 2018 1st Runner Up in December. I am so freaking proud of him, and he has already begun working on fundraising and various goals for his title year. He has asked me to help be his fundraiser coordinator, and I hope I am up to the task.
On a different note, my darling wife and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary, and I marked two years on hormones, along with three years with my name legally changed. I don’t think I would be where I am without the support of my wife. She is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me.
In the last part of December, I was without my mental health meds for a week and a half as I had to change insurances in order to stay with my current providers which include my endocrinologist. That was a rough time, as it was during the holidays. Suffice to say, I managed, and found someone who was able to prescribe me a temporary dose so I could be mostly functioning again.
This brings me to my goal list for 2018. I certainly like the word goals better than resolutions, as that has a slightly defeatist tone to me.
- Blog at least once a month. I have discovered that I really enjoy blogging, as I always have, but that it is also a way for me to express myself creatively. I know I haven’t been very good at keeping things updated, but I am going to try.
- Be more open about my mental illness. I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder when I was six years old, Depression at age 13, and Anxiety when I was 25. I am on medication that helps me function, but there are days that I can barely get out of bed. I want to blog more about those days, and be open about what happens. Maybe my story can help someone else out there.
- Upload more YouTube content. YouTube is something that I enjoy a lot. I want to do more things with my channel and make the content I want to make while still trying some new things. My wife and I also started up a joint channel, and I am excited to see where that will go.
- Eat better. This one has been majorly hard for me. I talked about eating right in a previous blog entry, but then I fell off the wagon, again. It is difficult, when you have a lower income, to eat right, even with food stamps. That’s why I have been considering either going pescatarian or vegetarian. More research is needed, of course, but we’ll see.
- Stay organized! I will talk about this more in another entry, but I have begun using the bullet journal method, and I have to say that I love it. It is so dang useful! Its my planner, journal, record keeper and more all in one package! I spurred and bought some gel pens, which make it more fun to write stuff in it in various colors. I have also begun using color coding, and make sure to write down everything I can or record it in my phone so I don’t miss anything. So far it has stuck!
- Pay attention to my physical health. I got really sick after Thanksgiving, and it was miserable. Now that I am mostly cured (still coughing with a little congestion) I will be getting my flu shot for the first time in a couple of years, and making sure I pay attention when my body says to slow down.
- Finish a new manuscript. This one has been something that has haunted me since I graduated college. I have a whole bunch of writing on a hard drive that is currently un-accessible, and I keep using that as an excuse to not write anything new. Well, I want to write, and I will keep trying to write, even if that means I shut myself in the bedroom for a few days while trying to work.
- Find a part time job. As much as I enjoy being self-employed, we need a little more money around here to survive. I am getting back into the swing of job hunting, and have just completed alcohol server training for the state of New Mexico. Hopefully that will help.
- Try new performance style and artforms. I am really wanting to branch out of drag. I performed in my first burlesque show last September, and I really want to do more. I would also like to do some theater acting again, and try stand up comedy. Hopefully, there will be opportunities for me to do so.
- Be a better husband, son, brother and friend. This one is really important to me. All of these goals ultimately add up to this point. By taking care of me, I can take care of others and be a better person all around.
Pretty decent start to a list, if you ask me. I hope all of you have had a safe and awesome start to your new year. Keep on smiling!