Whoa, that’s quite the mouthful.

As I mentioned in my goals post, I am considering a diet change.

Most of my life, I have been a meat eater. Literally on a third grade profile assignment I listed meat as a favorite food. I love a good steak or burger. I also like chicken – fried, wings, you name it.

But – I am getting old. I know it sound silly, because “Come on Christian, you’re just turning 30”. However, I have not always taken care of myself.

From about the age of 22 to 26, I was living on my own. There were periods of time where I did not have insurance, or could not afford to eat anything other than flour tortillas and butter (and food from the kindness of strangers and friends). I also smoked, especially when I was doing food service in Yellowstone, and it was the only way I could have breaks. Let’s also mention that at other points, my diet consisted of high sodium foods such as ramen and McDonald’s, because it was what was quickly and cheaply available.

So here I am, at 29, with:

  • early onset osteoarthritis (both knees and left elbow)
  • torn meniscus (right knee)
  • asthma
  • GERD (Gastroesophogeal Reflux Disease)
  • Costochondritis
  • strained rotatory cuff
  • irritable bowel syndrome

Yeah I know, it seems like a laundry list, but well you get the idea.

I have a love affair with food. I always have, even when I didn’t have a whole lot to eat. Now, being on hormones and going through a second puberty my appetite has gone through the roof. Bad Cholesterol and Heart disease are problems on both side, along with diabetes.

Long story short, a diet change might be more necessary than I thought.


December 2017 Wrap Up and Goals for 2018

11 days into the new year. It feels like it has been forever already – and it certainly has not been without surprises.

I rang in the new year at my beloved home bar, Sidewinders, with drag queens and Andrew Christian underwear models. It was a joyous moment, and certainly a memory that will stand out in my mind for a long time.

My roommate won the New Mexico Gay Rodeo Association title of Mr. NMGRA 2018 1st Runner Up in December. I am so freaking proud of him, and he has already begun working on fundraising and various goals for his title year. He has asked me to help be his fundraiser coordinator, and I hope I am up to the task.

On a different note, my darling wife and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary, and I marked two years on hormones, along with three years with my name legally changed. I don’t think I would be where I am without the support of my wife. She is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me.

In the last part of December, I was without my mental health meds for a week and a half as I had to change insurances in order to stay with my current providers which include my endocrinologist. That was a rough time, as it was during the holidays. Suffice to say, I managed, and found someone who was able to prescribe me a temporary dose so I could be mostly functioning again.

This brings me to my goal list for 2018. I certainly like the word goals better than resolutions, as that has a slightly defeatist tone to me.

  1. Blog at least once a month. I have discovered that I really enjoy blogging, as I always have, but that it is also a way for me to express myself creatively. I know I haven’t been very good at keeping things updated, but I am going to try.
  2. Be more open about my mental illness. I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder when I was six years old, Depression at age 13, and Anxiety when I was 25. I am on medication that helps me function, but there are days that I can barely get out of bed. I want to blog more about those days, and be open about what happens. Maybe my story can help someone else out there.
  3. Upload more YouTube content.  YouTube is something that I enjoy a lot. I want to do more things with my channel and make the content I want to make while still trying some new things. My wife and I also started up a joint channel, and I am excited to see where that will go.
  4. Eat better. This one has been majorly hard for me. I talked about eating right in a previous blog entry, but then I fell off the wagon, again. It is difficult, when you have a lower income, to eat right, even with food stamps. That’s why I have been considering either going pescatarian or vegetarian. More research is needed, of course, but we’ll see.
  5. Stay organized! I will talk about this more in another entry, but I have begun using the bullet journal method, and I have to say that I love it. It is so dang useful! Its my planner, journal, record keeper and more all in one package! I spurred and bought some gel pens, which make it more fun to write stuff in it in various colors. I have also begun using color coding, and make sure to write down everything I can or record it in my phone so I don’t miss anything. So far it has stuck!
  6. Pay attention to my physical health. I got really sick after Thanksgiving, and it was miserable. Now that I am mostly cured (still coughing with a little congestion) I will be getting my flu shot for the first time in a couple of years, and making sure I pay attention when my body says to slow down.
  7. Finish a new manuscript. This one has been something that has haunted me since I graduated college. I have a whole bunch of writing on a hard drive that is currently un-accessible, and I keep using that as an excuse to not write anything new. Well, I want to write, and I will keep trying to write, even if that means I shut myself in the bedroom for a few days while trying to work.
  8. Find a part time job. As much as I enjoy being self-employed, we need a little more money around here to survive. I am getting back into the swing of job hunting, and have just completed alcohol server training for the state of New Mexico. Hopefully that will help.
  9. Try new performance style and artforms. I am really wanting to branch out of drag. I performed in my first burlesque show last September, and I really want to do more. I would also like to do some theater acting again, and try stand up comedy. Hopefully, there will be opportunities for me to do so.
  10. Be a better husband, son, brother and friend. This one is really important to me. All of these goals ultimately add up to this point. By taking care of me, I can take care of others and be a better person all around.

Pretty decent start to a list, if you ask me. I hope all of you have had a safe and awesome start to your new year. Keep on smiling!


Good news: job interview tomorrow. Yay!
Bad news: we have until the 10th to pay rent. I don’t know how many of you are familiar with my current situation, but the new management at my apartments are being super homophobic and transphobic, slapping us with random fees, accusing us of not cleaning up after our dogs, requesting their ESA paperwork AGAIN even though we gave them that when we moved in, and various other things that have made it an unsafe environment for people like myself. They even had the gall to tell us “people are watching you”.
We owe $710 (that’s rent, late fee, AND fees for something stupid). The previous manager was cool as long as we got them the rent before the 15th of each month (late fee included). We want to pay what we owe so we can give them 30 days notice instead of getting an eviction notice which will screw our chances of being able to rent again.
We will be filing a report once we are out of here, but we need to get out first.
I usually offer comission work in exchange for monetary help, but my joints are suffering from a weather change causing me to be unable to sit at my work table for very long.
I don’t like begging. I am furious at myself for thinking I could own my own business and make ends meet. It’s time to grow up and get a big boy job.
If you can, please help. Even a little goes a long way. I can still take jewelry orders, though it may be some time to get them to you. My PayPal is – thank you.

Finding Validation in Fictional Characters

Editor’s Note: This entry was started in June 2017.

Picture this:

I am eight years old. I really, really want a Batgirl action figure because the new Batman movie has just come out and I like her better than Robin or Batman (funnily enough as an adult I have never been able to make it through the movie without laughing). I beg my mom for months that I want a Batgirl Action figure, with her red mesh outfit, blonde hair and sleek leather mask over her face (also I probably had a thing for Alicia Silverstone but I digress).

Imagine my disappointment as I unwrap a Batman action figure instead. Not that Batman is bad! Not at all. I love Batman (still do). I look over at my mom, and she tells me she looked everywhere (this was before Amazon, of course) but she couldn’t find any Batgirl toys.

Years later, I discovered it was because no one (ie boys) wanted Batgirl action figures. And the one barbie-esque doll my mom found was not an action figure, which was what I wanted.

Then, at 13,  I rediscover my love of X-Men. I scour the internet for photos of Jubilee, my favorite character, and all I find are sexual pictures that caused some intense confusion (but that’s another story).

Fast forward to 10-ish years later, and I awake to the news that the new Doctor is going to be a woman. And of course, there’s the usual backlash from the cis-gender white heterosexual fan base, but I digress.

I may not be the eight year old girl that wanted a Batgirl action figure, or the one who was in love with Jubilee at 13, but there, in the darkest part of my soul, I have a little hope. I can show my child the new doctor, and they may not have to struggle like I did to find characters to find validation with.

I hope so.

…She  coulda been ginger, at least.

I Collect Things.

Hey Christian, you have four million other things you could be doing but let’s blog about something stupid! Ok I don’t think it’s stupid. But it might seem like it. Anyway! Enjoy.

I check the bottom of the hoof for a number, and then copy it down carefully into my notebook. As I put the figure aside and begin to record information for the next one, I look up at my wife in realization.

“Is… is this what collectors do? Like, look this stuff up and write it down and actually care?”

She chuckles and nods. “Yep.”

“Oh.” I look down at the notebook in my lap, the name of each figure, the set they are from, the year they were released and any other pertinent information scribbled down in purple ink.

Since I was a kid, I have had numerous collections. Rocks, bottle caps, coins, stuffed animals, manga/comics – you name it, I’ve collected it.

However, I have never really understood the need to be so precise about it. I never understood my former housemate who had containers upon containers of coins with the year, where she found it and what the proposed value of the lot was scrawled on the side – why when at one point, desperate for rent, she went to several coin stores to try and sell them only to have them turned away.

My aunt bought us kids the quarter albums when the state quarters first came out. I tried collecting them, but years later as a starving college student in dire need of food, I dug them out of the box in my closet and used them to buy peanut butter.

I collected the figures originally because I’m a casual My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic fan. If you don’t know what that show is, you might be living under a rock. Or you just don’t care, which is fine.

Anyway, I’ve had the figures for quite some time, and finally, this weekend, I decided I was going to try the whole deal: looking them up, writing their information down, maybe even finding out if they were worth something. It couldn’t hurt, right?

I get it now.

There’s something about finding that information. It’s like a treasure hunt, and when you study the minute details, it makes the object you’re collecting really stand out.

For example:

This is an original figure, released in Wave #1 in 2010. The character is named Rarity, who is one of the six main characters of the show (the fandom term for them is The Mane Six). She is considered one of the more highly desirable figures, as she is often not found right away. I was surprised to learn her value is anywhere from $10 – $15.

Then, to give you an idea of different styles and the like:

Neon and Glitter styles, of each of the Mane Six that I have. It’s interesting to note that really only the main characters have edition numbers.

If you want to see the whole collection (so far), here’s the link to the album of my complete collection:

I haven’t purchased any new ones in at least a year… but maybe it’s time to add to the collection.

A Quick Update on Everything

Sheesh. Hi guys – the last couple of weeks have been a little crazy!

Let me explain – no wait, let me sum up:

  • Went to Battlemoor VIII. Freaking awesome. Made some monies there, had a blast. Entry regarding it on my SCA blog.
  • Got a job working as a recruiter for Legal Shield and Identity Theft Programs Salespeople.
  • My Patreon Page got an over-haul.
  • Opened the etsy version of my store.
  • I am in my first burlesque show on September 30th.
  • Annnnd I dunno what else.

I have two entries in the works here I hope to get posted soon!