WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST WILL CONTAIN IMAGERY OF DEATH, STARVATION AND WAR. THERE WILL ALSO BE MENTIONING OF GRAPHIC VIOLENCE AND GENOCIDE. READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.
Whoa, that’s quite the mouthful.
As I mentioned in my goals post, I am considering a diet change.
Most of my life, I have been a meat eater. Literally on a third grade profile assignment I listed meat as a favorite food. I love a good steak or burger. I also like chicken – fried, wings, you name it.
But – I am getting old. I know it sound silly, because “Come on Christian, you’re just turning 30”. However, I have not always taken care of myself.
From about the age of 22 to 26, I was living on my own. There were periods of time where I did not have insurance, or could not afford to eat anything other than flour tortillas and butter (and food from the kindness of strangers and friends). I also smoked, especially when I was doing food service in Yellowstone, and it was the only way I could have breaks. Let’s also mention that at other points, my diet consisted of high sodium foods such as ramen and McDonald’s, because it was what was quickly and cheaply available.
So here I am, at 29, with:
- early onset osteoarthritis (both knees and left elbow)
- torn meniscus (right knee)
- GERD (Gastroesophogeal Reflux Disease)
- strained rotatory cuff
- irritable bowel syndrome
Yeah I know, it seems like a laundry list, but well you get the idea.
I have a love affair with food. I always have, even when I didn’t have a whole lot to eat. Now, being on hormones and going through a second puberty my appetite has gone through the roof. Bad Cholesterol and Heart disease are problems on both side, along with diabetes.
Long story short, a diet change might be more necessary than I thought.
11 days into the new year. It feels like it has been forever already – and it certainly has not been without surprises.
I rang in the new year at my beloved home bar, Sidewinders, with drag queens and Andrew Christian underwear models. It was a joyous moment, and certainly a memory that will stand out in my mind for a long time.
My roommate won the New Mexico Gay Rodeo Association title of Mr. NMGRA 2018 1st Runner Up in December. I am so freaking proud of him, and he has already begun working on fundraising and various goals for his title year. He has asked me to help be his fundraiser coordinator, and I hope I am up to the task.
On a different note, my darling wife and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary, and I marked two years on hormones, along with three years with my name legally changed. I don’t think I would be where I am without the support of my wife. She is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me.
In the last part of December, I was without my mental health meds for a week and a half as I had to change insurances in order to stay with my current providers which include my endocrinologist. That was a rough time, as it was during the holidays. Suffice to say, I managed, and found someone who was able to prescribe me a temporary dose so I could be mostly functioning again.
This brings me to my goal list for 2018. I certainly like the word goals better than resolutions, as that has a slightly defeatist tone to me.
- Blog at least once a month. I have discovered that I really enjoy blogging, as I always have, but that it is also a way for me to express myself creatively. I know I haven’t been very good at keeping things updated, but I am going to try.
- Be more open about my mental illness. I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder when I was six years old, Depression at age 13, and Anxiety when I was 25. I am on medication that helps me function, but there are days that I can barely get out of bed. I want to blog more about those days, and be open about what happens. Maybe my story can help someone else out there.
- Upload more YouTube content. YouTube is something that I enjoy a lot. I want to do more things with my channel and make the content I want to make while still trying some new things. My wife and I also started up a joint channel, and I am excited to see where that will go.
- Eat better. This one has been majorly hard for me. I talked about eating right in a previous blog entry, but then I fell off the wagon, again. It is difficult, when you have a lower income, to eat right, even with food stamps. That’s why I have been considering either going pescatarian or vegetarian. More research is needed, of course, but we’ll see.
- Stay organized! I will talk about this more in another entry, but I have begun using the bullet journal method, and I have to say that I love it. It is so dang useful! Its my planner, journal, record keeper and more all in one package! I spurred and bought some gel pens, which make it more fun to write stuff in it in various colors. I have also begun using color coding, and make sure to write down everything I can or record it in my phone so I don’t miss anything. So far it has stuck!
- Pay attention to my physical health. I got really sick after Thanksgiving, and it was miserable. Now that I am mostly cured (still coughing with a little congestion) I will be getting my flu shot for the first time in a couple of years, and making sure I pay attention when my body says to slow down.
- Finish a new manuscript. This one has been something that has haunted me since I graduated college. I have a whole bunch of writing on a hard drive that is currently un-accessible, and I keep using that as an excuse to not write anything new. Well, I want to write, and I will keep trying to write, even if that means I shut myself in the bedroom for a few days while trying to work.
- Find a part time job. As much as I enjoy being self-employed, we need a little more money around here to survive. I am getting back into the swing of job hunting, and have just completed alcohol server training for the state of New Mexico. Hopefully that will help.
- Try new performance style and artforms. I am really wanting to branch out of drag. I performed in my first burlesque show last September, and I really want to do more. I would also like to do some theater acting again, and try stand up comedy. Hopefully, there will be opportunities for me to do so.
- Be a better husband, son, brother and friend. This one is really important to me. All of these goals ultimately add up to this point. By taking care of me, I can take care of others and be a better person all around.
Pretty decent start to a list, if you ask me. I hope all of you have had a safe and awesome start to your new year. Keep on smiling!
anecdata , n :
(usually humorous or pejorative) Anecdotal evidence.
trypophobia , n :
An irrational or obsessive fear of irregular patterns or clusters of small holes, such as those found in honeycombs.